I've been under considerable stress at the office, and perhaps overflowing to my personal life as well, because work is pushing me to do many things, a lot of them probably inconceivable for me to do a few years ago, and still scaring the hell out of me right now if I can do it, and personal life is a mess. Kind of just existing day to day, you know.
It has always been good therapy for me when I'm in the dumps, I try to help other people out or make other people happy, so I can give myself a bit of self-worth, and get my mind off things for the moment. So, many times I find myself in strange or akward situations, and since I'm depressed a lot, many people see me as a helpful person, when in fact I just do it for myself. Well, in most cases it's the will to help first, with an added value of good therapy.
So.... right now, I'm sitting at a commitee office, one trying to hold an international music festival which starts... in 2 days, helping out with small stuff here and there. I really want to help out, as it seems there are a lot of things that haven't been done, and my helping actually makes a difference, and... it keeps my mind of things going on at the office and personal life. Having feasible short-term goals to do, or small steps or challenges to overcome, is refreshing, and also helps with your self-esteem whenever you feel you aren't doing well at anything, you're no good to anyone, or you're forever trapped in the good-for-nothing mode.
The excitement of something new is always a good boost.
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